Welcoming February today. Time does fly so fast since we celebrate the New Year 2014. For me, January was a mix feeling month. First, when I reach my age, I feel like I haven’t accomplished enough than I expected. If your birthday is at the beginning of the year, it’s like birthday is a resolution time. Years ago, I was a person who targeted further ahead dreams. But after I did my surgery last two years, I feel like I am more focus on what I am now. If I am planning something, I don’t really looking forward for it. I keep remembering the moment when I laid back on the surgery bed and felt so helpless though that’s because I was being anesthetic. The first thing is that I need to find the “key” to unlock my some old me.
Second, is about my relationship. Where it will end? Every time we discuss it, it just ended sadly to me. I just hope that I am on the right path.
Then, the gloomy days perfect the feelings. ^^
However, still I am grateful with my life. I was taking a time to flash back all things that had happened in my life that affected so much to me that change me who I am now few days ago, and I do realize that I have been blessed and protected by my own karma. People that I have met, I am meeting right now, I met accidentally, all of them were, are my learning lessons. I have the feeling that this 2014 will not be an easy one for me. I have to make some decisions that might or will change my life. I also have to learn again once more to be a better person. I always become an impatient and show too much emotion and thought person. And I don’t fell like I like it.
Despite all my worries above, I am planning to have one or two trips this year. I need it for myself, to run away from my routines and to refresh my mind again, which I always get after a trip. I hope I can find good companions. As for today, I wish everyone have a nice Sunday coz tomorrow we will back to reality. I found a nice quote for myself ^^
"Do not dwell in the past, do not dream of the future, concentrate the mind on the present moment." Buddha