Ilovetheseproducts BRTC and Holika Holika *wink*

Holla…

It’s been a while since I write. Today, I wanna write a product review. This is something that I never do but I really like these products. And this review also will be a testimonial for the online shop where I bought those items ^^. .For your information, I am not good in writing a review product. So, I will just say what I feel about these products.

 I’m not the type of girl (not really a woman yet) that like to do make up everyday.  I used to use a morning cream only everyday. But after I reach this age (huff), I started to think about other stuffs. So, I found this product. That is BB cream.

My #1 fav is BRTC Whitening and Repairing BB Cream.

How I can end up using this product?

Well, using BB cream is something new for me and luckily this online shop provides a lot of BB cream samples from different type of product. At first, I tried Skinfood and Etude’s coz those products are familiar to me. I am quit like the skinfood texture and it blends well on my skin but…since I have an oily to combination skin, after some hours this product makes my face too oily. But I still bought few samples. I bought several products here then the owner always gives some free samples.  Then, one time I got this BRTC sample and after I tried, I just fall in love (lebay……….) It blends well, covers my dark spots and gives natural look if I put it on the right amount. It also make my face skin whiter but if to thick, will make me like put on a fine mask. ^^ However, it is pricey so, I bought the samples only for several months ..o yeah, it also never makes my face too much oily. I use this only on weekend. For dating, party, etc. xixixixi.. 

So what do I use for daily????? That’s my number 2!

#2 is Holika Holika Miracle Real Skin Finish for Combination/ Oily skin.

How I found it? Well, I saw it on an advertisement that Bora –Sistar in it. I dun really like the group but I am quite fond of her J So, I googled this product and read some reviews then I send a bbm to this owner and order the product ( w/o even try the sample). So, when it arrived, I forced myself not to feel disappointed for the result. And…….the first look, I like the box. Cute and has a butterfly on the top of the cover. Then, I can’t say I love it but I like using it. If you are too lazy to put on make up for daily activity, well, this is the right product. Just put on the right amount after your ski n care then finish it with a compact powder, then u r ready for your routines. Why I write finish it with powder? Because it gives a glowing face, since I have an oily face with the weather in Indonesia, it looks dull sometimes so, covers with a powder is the best result. The glowing will be just more natural. Perfecto ^^

Here is the picture of the applying of those two products on my hand skin. I am too shy to put on my face .. wkwkwk..

I guess, that’s all that I can say. Last but not least, I can say that this shop is recommended! The owner always tries her best to please us and I do like shopping there. :) 

“A girl should be two things: classy and fabulous.” 
― Coco Chanel

Guilty Pleasure Series #2

Bonjour! I am sitting in my room and I'm suppose to finish my Quiz questions but I just stuck in my mind and since the internet in this place working at the moment, so I decided to update the blog ^^

I have the urged to write since months ago, but I was so busy with my work at school or I was too lazy so I can’t even think of other else.

In my last post this, I mentioned a lot of guilty pleasures that I have. #1 is books, then #2 is OUTFITS! Meaning is I love bags, shoes, clothes (tops, dresses, shorts,etc)! *huff*

I’m not sure when I started to like those things. If I recall my memory, I was a tomboyish girl. I was like to wear jeans, an over-sized t-shirts only. I even didn't really care for what I put on my feet not even care with my hair. It was always my mother who cut my hair until I was in grade 9 or more. I was a girl with a lot of acne and scares all over my face before. It kinda made me feel shy to myself.

I can remember that I used to wear jeans jacket to college. ^^ I think, I started to thinking about what to I wear when I was in grade 8. But I forget about it when I was in grade 9 because most of my friends are boys. We did sport not shop.

I paid more attention to my hair for the first time when I was in the second year of college time. I dyed my hair to blonde! The day when I showed up to campus, my friends were shocked. hahaha… Soon after I’m making my own money, I start to shop n hardly stop it now.

I dun really have any particular style. I wear what I want to wear. As much as possible I try to make myself comfortable. My no. 1 list to buy usually clothes. Tops are the most. Too much I think! I have a cupboard, 2 shelves and a box container for all my clothes. Then, I have a shelf and a box container for my bags. I even gave to charity some of those. But then I’ll buy some more..>.< There was a time; I was so in to cardigans, jackets, coats. I have a lot of it. I have different type of cardigans with many colors. I used to buy black only. Later, I started to like the bright colors and now I have purple, yellow, red, grey, brown, nude, green, pink, and white. I still want blue, orange..=P

Then, I love shirts! Last year, I even had more than 10 apparels that I haven’t wear at the end of the year. I also started to buy shirts that I think I haven’t the color yet. I dun really buy blouse because I rarely wear it daily. I’m working at school and I dun need blouse since I have uniform and I can just wear t-shirt after that. However, it turns out I have a lot of it in one shelf. Huff…….I like wearing jeans before. But now, I prefer shorts to long pants. I also didn't like wear dresses before, but now I’m kinda get used to it. With all the clothes that I have, I still have a problem in deciding what to wear every time I need to hang out. I can’t decide what to wear. >.<

Some of my bags. Mean: there are more

No.2 list is bags. I love big bags. I also dun have particular favorite bags. I just buy the one that really catchy in my eyes. I can’t count how many bags that I have. But at least I have more than 20. It might be not so many. I only like to use 5-6 of them because I hang my favorite bags rather than keep it in the shelf or box. My favorite color for my bag is brown.

My favorite at the moment. Got it from Netherlands

No. 3 is shoes or sandals. I never know that I had a lot of it until my mom took those out one by one from the shelf. Half of the items in there were mine..>.< And I still have it in my room. But still, I always think that I dun have an appropriate one. *sigh* definitely something wrong with me! Recently, I even made buy custom for my fave shoes. But the last time I bought sandals was 2 months ago, the same thing with bag. I favorite shoes right now is my birthday gift from my boyfriend this year.

When I decide to clean up my wardrobe, I will find a lot of apparels that I haven’t wear even once. Some also are too small for me now (yeah, gaining some weighs), some are just dun find the right time to wear. I just cleaned my big box last week and I gave most 'em to charity since I rarely or not even once wear them.

I’m not the type of person that I like to do window shopping. Then how come I have a lot of those things?? Well, it because I prefer online shopping….It even worst, I guess. Huhuhu.. I tried to control myself before. I was able to reduce it. But when I get stress, I have a strong feeling of wanting to spend my money on something! Geezzzzz…..I think, I need a therapy for this. Or….maybe there are a lot of females just like me also.

The truth is it’s not only outfits that I usually buy. But also accessories, face treatment, cute stuffs that I dun really need sometimes. But the worst thing is for the tops! Writing about this make me realize that I do really have to control myself. I think it is better if I want to buy gold like necklace or rings. =D However, I'm really starting to control myself. I have to start think about "need" and "want". I have to make the list of my priority now.

"Good shoes take you to good places" _from Hanayori Dango comic series 

"The only real elegance is in the mind; if you’ve got that, the rest really comes from it."

— Diana Vreeland 

New page, new day, new stories, new year....

Hello............ Just a short post coz I would like to greet you all HAPPY NEW YEAR. It's 2013.
I spent my new year's eve with my beloved O and my pals. Last night, I even had a new pair of sandals. However, I didn't make wishes for this year. This year I just want to go with the flow. I just want to do what I want to do. My first to do list is " January Charity". The rest will follow. ^^

So, what about yours? ;)

Me and influenza *sigh*

Influenza…. I dunno why it always comes to me in these few months. I feel like it just few weeks ago I suffered from this illness. But it came back again last2 days, full package with the bad cough. The worst thing is that it costs a lot also! *sob*

It was 3 days ago when I started to feel that I dun really feeling oke. Mr. O asked me to take vitamin C and the medicine for my flu. Then I supposed to sleep earlier. But I can’t sleep. When I woke up at 4 a.m.,  I felt my head was so in pain and I didn’t really had a strength to move my body. So, I decided to come late to my work and I went to the doctor first. The doctor that I wished t visit hasn’t opened yet that time. So, I just wandered around to find any doctor. I found one. Before I went to the doctor, I went to ATM first. I thought, it’ll cost a lot.

The doctor diagnosed me. He gave me a shot on my hip (he said to stop the flu and won’t get extra charge and the consultation only costs Rp 100.000,00) so I agreed. Then, he gave 6 types of medicines that consist of :

1. Antibiotics (definitely!)
2. Something to thinning the phlegm
3. Something that I didn’t know what for
4. Tablets for the cough
5. Syrup for the cough
6. Tablets for the flu
7. And extra tablets in case I get fever

And all of those cost me…. Rp240.000..doeeenkkk…!!!  What was left in my purse only Rp7.000. It even didn’t enough to pay my gasoline.. huhuhuhu. However, I just moved on.. ^^ I went to my work place and spent a day like I didn’t feel alive. At 1p.m. I noticed that I got reddish on my face and neck. OMG! It happened again. Allergic! I was never had an allergic before. But after my appendix operation on last June, every time I take an antibiotic, I get an allergic. So, I decided to go back to the doctor again. Same place but different doctor coz the doctor only there in the morning. The “evening” doctor gave me another antibiotic. She also offered an injection. I wondered why they always ask for that… hmmm..

Oh, then I had to paid Rp170.000! OMG.. in a day I spend more than Rp400.000. I better to get well soon for that. Huhuhu.. I rarely visit doctor actually coz it cost a lot. But I had to go last Thursday because I my cough that had lasted more than 2 months. The other point is that I have a lot of plan for the weekend. However, I can’t join one of my childhood friend’s wedding party yesterday coz I still in a bad cough n flu. I went to bed around 8 p.m. and collapse till morning. >.< I felt really bad bout that. Today, I hope it will be better! Coz I need my full health for tomorrow!! Huff.. My best friend said that “ Get rest. Useless if u have worked so hard but you spent it on medicine” Yes.. health IS expensive..

Guilty Pleasure series... #1 Books

Hola...hari ini sedang ada waktu senggang.. Terpikir untuk menulis ttg guilty pleasuresku. (^_^). I have a lot of guilty pleasures. Why I say "guilty pleasure"? Coz, everytime I bought or purchased those things, mostly I have a bit guilt feeling.. Only a bit (sometimes big) but a bit is enough. Hehehe..Hari ini bahasnya 1 guilt dl ya..
My #1 guilty pleasure is BOOKS! 
Sejak masih SD saya sudah suka membaca. Awalnya saya paling suka membaca cerita-cerita sejarah. Kalau bacaan dibuku teks Bahasa Indonesia selalu saya baca dengan teliti. Dulu saya suka ke perpustaakn untuk baca cerita-certia rakyat.Pada waktu SMP, teman saya mulai mengenalkan komik ke saya. Komik dulu yang kubaca awalnya Doraemon lalu yang dengan serius kubaca adalah serial Detektif Conan. Kalau ada jam pelajaran kosong atau istirahat, saya akan baca komik tersebut. Kemudian perlahan-lahan mulai mengenal komik serial cantik, komik seri. Bahkan saya mulai mengoleksi komik. Salah satunya adalah serial Detektif Conan tersebut yang masih belum tamat sampai sekarang.

Nah, awalnya saya keranjingan beli komik..apapun dilahap..Trz seiring wktu, menumpuklah dirumah..Sy sampai harus punya lemari tambahan buat komik2 itu..Jumlahnya mencapai ratusan lebih dulu. Pernah juga sy iseng sewain ke temen2 waktu msih skul. Tp belakangan sy ga koleksi serial misteri. Alasannya simple.. TAKUT.. ^^ Dari koleksi2 inilah, sy dl sempat buka rental komik. Tp hanya bertahan 2 thn karena ga ada yg urusin tokonya. Sy merelakan komik2 n novel2 g buat di rental. Tapi saat tutup toko, sy hanya mengambil kembali beberapa buku yg saya suka. Setelah itu sy lbih suka koleksi novel. 

Jenis bacaan kesukaan saya adalah.....
1. komik serial cantik karangan Kyoko Hikawa. Kenapa? Karena selain gambar bagus juga lucu n ganteng.. hehehe. Judul2 yang saya koleksi : Girls, Fujiomi dan Chizumi series, From Far Away..

Chizumi dan Fujiomi

Miriam

Yang g suka yang lain adalah Miriam..Sayang saya ga pernah dapat seri lengkapnya.. Termsk koleksi langka sekarang.. n harganya muahal...Aih....jadi kangen baca ulang..

2. Komik serial cantik dari pengarang2 lama.. Duh..lupa gitu nama2nya.. Tapi intinya saya lebih suka komik2 dari pengarang tahun 80an..Karena ceritanya lebih bagus dan kuat penokohannya.Bahkan saya bs mengenal si pengarang hanya dari gambarnya.. ^^

3. Novel2 yang diangkat dari kisah nyata ataupun biografi tentang seseorang atau sesuatu dan yang lucu2. Saya suka membaca novel jenis seperti ini karena saya suka mengambil inti dari sebuah cerita sebagai pembelajaran saya.contohnya: Kicau Kacaunya Indra Herlambang, My Stupid Boss, Kevin (dulu pernah pengen jadi psikolog), tentang sejarah2 kerajaan kuno (dulu juga cita2pengen jadi arkeolog tp not even close now) ^^ Adapula Amy Chua pny Tiger Mom. I really recommend this book..

RECOMMENDED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

4. Novel yang tema ceritanya kek yang detektif2an gitu looo. Yang ceritanya ada penculikan, pembunuhan, dll. Intinya yang menegangkan!! Contoh : Women's Murder Club nya James Patterson, Tell Me Your Dream by Sidney Sheldon, etc. Saking sukanya, sy jadiin buku Sidney Sheldon yang ini jadi bahan skripsi waktu kuliah. wkwkwk..
Ada juga serial Sherlock Holmes. Ini baru mulai saya baca bbrp bulan belakangan ini karena nonton serinya. Lihat Sherlock Series kalo mo tau lebih banyak. *can't wait for the third season*

5. Novel seri historical romance. Tapi saya juga memilih bacaan berdasarkan cerita sih. Yang paling g suka itu pengarang Julia Quinn. Seri The Brigertons nya manteb dah! Tapi yang saya koleksi hanya beberapa judul dari random writer kek Loraine Heath, Julia London, Amanda Quick.. Kalo lagi pengen baca sy akan sewa.

6. Buku-buku tentang agama Buddha. Pastinya sebagai seorang buddhist saya suka mencari tahu lebih banyak ttg agama yang sy anut. Ada kalanya saat saya sedang mengalami dilema dalam sehari2 sy akan mencari bacaan dalam buku2 tersebut. Yang selalu menarik adalah saya akan selalu menemukan jawaban yg sy cari kapanpun saya baca. Walaupun buku tersebut sdh pernah dibaca, Buku yang sedang saya baca adalah "Si Cacing dan Kotorannya" by Ajahn Brahm..

7. Harlequin...............Oke.kadang seri Harlequin bisa sedikit berlebihan. Tapi tetep kadang sy pengen membacanya.. Tapi sy ga mengoleksi buku seri ini.. Cukup sewa aja. ^^ Kadang saat sedang butuh membaca dan mo yang ringan dan singkat maka jenis buku ini yang sy sewa.

8. Fantasi... Sy sk beberapa judul yang fantasi. Sebut aja yang pasti uda pada tau.. Harry Potter. Pastinya ini salah satu world wide book ^^ Kemudian ada Twilight, Percy Jackson's Series. Ada juga Vampire Academy. Untuk Vampire Academy, cukup minjem aja dr temen. ;)

Nah..kira2 itulah jenis2 buku kesukaan saya.  Tapi ada juga jenis buku yang pantang saya baca, sbb:

1. Misteri.. Buku2 jenis ini adalah so not my type! Sebutlah sy penakut. Tapi nyatanya mang takut sih, Bisa sampai msk dalam selimut sambil baca ini..Dl kalo baca komik serial misteri yang setan2, mo balik komiknya aja ngintip dulu.. >.<

2. Romance.. Well, seri Harlequin memang banyakan romance tp sy pasti baca resensi dl.. Kalo ada intriknya n ga melulu cinta2an baru saya baca. Keknya hal romantis itu too good too be true jadi di baca cm bikin geli.. *tongueout*

3. Sad ending story.. Setiap baca resensinya, sy akan memastikan kalau ceritanya ga sad ending. Tapi pernah sekali beli novel yg ga happy ending n hasilnya sy kesel sendiri ^^

Nah...how do books affected me? Well, I have a big desire to buy books when I'm in a bookstore. I will try to find books that I like. I will order from Amazon if I think I won't find it in here. Beberapa koleksi buku saya dalam bahasa inggris karena buku tersebut tidak diterjemahkan ke bahasa indonesia dan saya suka sekali dengan ceritanya. Terkadang saya membeli buku dan baru saya baca berbulan2 berikutnya. Here are
my unread novels.. Masih numpuk.. Dengan tumpukan segitupun kadang saya msh suka sewa lagi. Kadangkala saat saya sdg membaca novel yang terlalu suram, sy akan merasa gloomy jg makanya sy selingi dengan novel lain. Kalo terlalu banyak membaca nvl dengan tipe yg sama, kadang bosen jg jd sy selingi lah tipe bacaan saya. Kemudian dengan terlalu gemar membeli, menyewa ini kadang sy bisa over budget. Ada saatnya saya pengeeeeeeen sekali beli 1 buku aja.. Jadi sy akn ubek2 dah tu toko buku sampai nemu satu. *sigh* 
However, I enjoy reading books.I am a dreamer and by reading I can draw the scenes in my head n I like it. I want to share my books with my children some day and I won't stop it because of the quotes below are so true..

“A reader lives a thousand lives before he dies, said Jojen. The man who never reads lives only one.” 
― George R.R. Martin, A Dance With Dragons

“For one who reads, there is no limit to the number of lives that may be lived, for fiction, biography, and history offer an inexhaustible number of lives in many parts of the world, in all periods of time.” 
― Louis L'Amour

“You're never alone when you're reading a book.” 
― Susan Wiggs

It's not the end of the world.....right?!

Have you ever felt gloomy? I bet everyone ever felt that way. I am right now. Actually, since few days ago. I blame it on my PMS (Premenstrual Syndrome) *grin* I dun really like this kind of feeling but seriously, I can't help it! Sometimes it last longer than what I want. 

However, I dun think I can blame it on the syndrome. It's just me, myself and my thoughts. I believe it has something related with my absence to the vihara these few weeks. I kinda find bunch of excuses not to attend there every week. Once again I blame on my jobs that made me have to do over work till Saturday, I even blame on my cough that hasn't recovered yet since almost 2 months ago. Well, I am not the religious one but I do feel the use when I attend the devotion every week. I know that Buddha's dhamma need over and over and over repetition to hear in life. I think it's all the same in every religions. It will make you wiser and grateful.

Recently, I got angry too easily. I put all my emotions in one side.. Anger..I feel like I'm way too sensitive with problems that I have or had. I realize it but again I feel like the feelings are consuming me. There was something 3 weeks ago that made me so mad with my life. I can't share it here since it's part of my family matter. At that time, I was so upset. I can't think anything but unfair. Life is unfair to me. I also afraid..about my future. What it will be... I have no idea bout it at all. I even cried when I rode my motorcycle. I even cried when I shared to my Mr. O. At that time, I was teaching and I wasn't so sure my student realized it or no. Maybe he thought I just got flu. hehehehe... Then, at that my sensitive phase, I felt like I need someone to make me feel better. But no one did not even Mr. O. He wasn't here at that time and all he can wrote just be patient. haizz...However, I get over it..I can accept the news better at the end. After I controlled myself.

However, it came another thought. I felt like Mr. O acted differently. Actually, at this moment Mr. O is currently working out of Jakarta. He works in a remote area name Taliabu Island,  part of Maluku Islands. He has been worked there since February 2011. He stays there for about 6 weeks and then comes back to Jakarta for a 2-weeks break. So, usually when he feels bored, he will start to be gloomy and moody also. I try so hard to understand it. But....sometimes when I feel the same way, I just can't think clearly and it's like I wanna to be selfish. I want at least he can chat with me and not just answers the questions and period. *sigh* I even feel that he is still feel gloomy and moody till now. All can I do is just wait. Let him be. Though I feel so hard to do it..But I'm afraid I can explode very soon with disappointing feelings and I know both of u won't need that at this very moment. And to make it worst our 5 years dating anniversary just passed like that. It just getting worst each year with every kind of celebration of the birthdays, valentines and anniversary..It's like .................................................................*sigh again*

Beside with my love life, I also feel the gloomy feeling in my job. I can't stand with injustice. I just want to do something but when I can't, I become a rebellion. In teaching time, I also find it hard to control my emotion. I just want the students do nicely things so I dun need to correct them... Geezzz...I am tired with this feeling coz it ruins my whole life these few weeks. I need to find something to fix it..SOON! 

Well, I was thinking about what I had and I decided to write it down to ease me down a bit.. I can think clearly and I know that I have to be grateful with all I have despite the issue that I  am having right now.I deal with myself so I just have to tell myself that everything will be ok when the time is right. What Mr. O said was right.. Be patient. For me, patient isn't really my thing. the only way I can be sedate is when I'm cooking and walking in the mall. But out of that, I tend to run n the school corridor or walk so fast when I am working, finish my food in a short time unless I talk to much and I even speak too fast that sometimes people can't here my pronunciation and I even can't think of my grammar anymore. However, deep in my little tiny conscience, I know that there will be the way and I still have to face it and enjoy it. The earth is still spinning around and so my life.

This is my story...what about yours? 

"There is one thing one has to have: either a soul that is cheerful by nature, or a soul made cheerful by work, love, art and knowledge." Friedrich Nietzche

_just suit me a lot_

From the memory in June 1996 till 2012...

"It takes a long time to grow an old friend." 

- by John Leonard

"A Friend is someone who knows all about you and loves you anyway!!!" 

- (sent by Heather Tallent)

Few days ago, I had a conversation with one of my friend. He talked about me. He mentioned that I’ve changed a lot. Well, basically, I’m evolved (manusia purba x) ^^  It's not that I change myself but i change the way I think..However, after the conversation ended, I started to think of what I have been through these past years n I was thinking of people that influences me these long. I realize that so many things have changed and one of it is what I call friendship.

Sebenernya ga  kepikiran mo tulis ttg ini tdnya.. Ada bbrp hal yg melatar belakangi tulisan g. Hal2 yg mendasari perubahan2 dlm hidup. Pertama, perubahan terjadi krn perbedaan latar belakang keluarga, jenis kelamin, pola pikir, gaya hidup, lingkungan dan masalah2 yg dihadapi oleh seseorg. Kedua, g memutuskan untuk menulis bukannya untuk menjudge atau menyalahkan tp untuk menelaah apa yg terjd dlm hidup g dan g rasa pikiran g uda cukup terbuka dan wise untuk menerima setiap perubahan dan perbedaan n semoga yg membaca jg ga menjudge n noted ini adlh point of view g.. ^^ Ketiga, g berharap dgn tulisan ini bs membuat kita lbh saling toleransi lg terhadap  temen krn jujur g pny penyesalan dlm bertindak, berkata dan berpikir thdp salah seorg tmn g sehingga membuat hub g org renggang. Skrg stlh g menghadapi byk hal g sadar bahwa g mengerti knp dy melakukan hal tsb..kesalahan g adalah not be there to make him believe in me..tp g ikt menjauhi saat dy menjauh.. Pertanyaannya, is it too late to realize now??

G mgkn adlah pribadi yg hidupny berdasarkan masa lalu. G mengenang masa lalu, menghargainya dan berusaha mempertahankan walaupun ada perubahan. Kdg sedih jg klo mkr, have they forgotten bout those moments? Byk hal2 yg g hargai dr masa lalu g ttg tmn2 g. So, let’s flash back…. ;)

Apa sih yang disebut sebagai teman? Or siapa sih yang bisa kita sebut teman? Or what about best friends?

Jawabannya mungkin relative bagi setiap orang.. So do I. Ada beberapa orang yg g sebut sebagai temen.. Temen yang menurut g cukup deket..or temen sekedar tau. Bagi sebagian org ada yg menganggap temen lebih baik dr saudara sendiri.

Mungkin kali ini g mo flash back ke beberapa tahun lalu.. Saat g n temen2 g masih imut ^^. Temen2 yang g sebutkan disini adalah temen-temen dari SMP g. Kenapa mereka? Karena merekalah yang mempunyai byk pengaruh dlm hdp g hingga skrg dan bisa g sebut sebagai old friends. They dun know kalo years g bersama mereka membuat hdp g lbh baik..klo ga ada mrk dl mgkn g ga akn spt skrg..I owe them that. G akan memberikan inisial untuk menyebut mereka dan g akan cb mendescribe mereka menurut pendapat g. *noted my opinion*

Sebelum g describe, g mo ceritain sedikit dl pertemuan g dgn mereka.Mnrt g pertemuan dgn mreka adlah jodoh.. G ketemu mereka wkt kelas 3 SMP karena sebagian besar dr kita sekelas. Di sekolah itu system pindah kelasnya saat kenaikan kelas sangat gampang, dr nomor urut sekian akan terus satu kelas. Kelas 1 dan 2 g ga pernah sekelas dgn satupun dr mereka. Nah, harusnya g ga akan pernah sekelas dgn mereka klo bukan krn ada masalah dgn geng main g sblmnya.. It was misunderstanding sbnrnya tp ya namanya msih labil jd ya gitu d. Akhinya nykp minta g dipisahkan dr bbrp anak..masuklah g kekelas D itu. ^^ Nah…mereka adalah ………

1.       Si A, dy ini beda kelas. The only one yg separated. Sbnrnya hrsnya g sekelasnya ma dy..tp krn pindah jd ga sekelas d. Si A ini tipe anak yg sensitive dl nya. Semakin tua aj semakin bijak. Wkwkwk.. dl klo main bareng n dy ud manyun, semua tau dy ge bad mood n kita bakalan diemin dy aj ampe y bae.dy bs duduk mojok sndr kita main sndr..walau beda kelas dy kenal sbagian dr kelas D n jd sering main bareng plus rmhny deketan.

2.     Si B, dy ini yg kedua tertuanya.. wkt SMP dy anaknya pendek gt..tiba2 jd tinggi gt wkt SMA..First impression g pertama kali ma dy tu wkt Class Meeting SMP 2. Yg kenalin Si A, Si B ini dr kelas lain. Si A ini byk gt kenal sana sini. Nah, wkt itu g suka main catur n ga ada yg mo main sama g. Jd Si A kenalin lah g ma Si B. n dgn 3 langkah skak mat! Ya gt lah.g keki tu wkt u..^^ ampe pas perpisahan di Bali kelas 3 g sempet ajak si B main lg..G menang sih..cm g gatau dy mang ngalah or kemampuan dy menurun.. =P tp si B ini orgnya easy going, nyantai, sifatny sabar n pelawak gt.. Dy selalu ngelucu tp terkadang dy bs berskap dewasa.

3.     Si C, nah dy ini mnrt g yg paling ganteng d di grup ini. Hahaha.. g jg pny kesan pertama dgn ne org.. tp dy gatau ^^. Jd wkt kelas 2 SMP wkt pas ujian2 gt, g pernah tu main ke kelas lain cr temen g n g duduk diatas satu meja.. n nama si C lah yg tertera. Trz g mkr ne org namanya jelek amet..*peace* trz g nanya tmn g  yg mana  ne orgnya..Pas ditunjukin g mkr cakep jg..wkwkwk. Si C ini ankny dulu tu pendiem.. tau knp pelit ngmg n sk maen sepak bola tu dl. Mnrt bbrp org yg cukup deket dgn grup ini dl bilang decision maker nya itu g n dy..yg lain oke2 aja. Jd g org cukup sering bentrok krn sm2 keras kepala n pny logika sndr, tp kdg g org bs saling discuss jg klo hrs memanage a trip.dl dy org yg pny sdkt ekspresi krn kita hrs tebak2an gt ttg dy.lucunya pnh ada yg blg g ma dy rada mirip sifatnya..ga ngerti mananya.

4.    Si D, dy the other girl di grup ini selain g. Kita lahir di bulan yg sama tp beda zodiac ^^. Si D ini mgkn adalah savior g. ^^ Dl g tu introvert n was in a trouble wkt mulai msk kelas 3. G malah milih rokok buat jd pelampiasan. Nah, suatu wkt g duduk sebangku dgn si D n dy yg ngajarin g buat ngungkapin perasaan g. G rasa dy sndr ud lupa.. but I won’t. Si D ini anakny cukup complicated menurut g. Sifat dy ga peka (kebykan main ma co x ya :p ),lembut2 keras.. Semakin dy dewasa semakin jd sifat kerasnya dy. Tp mnrt g itu krn bagian dr kehidupan dy. Dy ini tipenya au ban.. klo dibilangin yak msk kiri kuar kanan. Jd dy hrs kena jera dl br bs sadar. Dy sempet mengakuin jg. Trz dr semua temen g hny dy lah yg sulit g ketahui kadar perasaanny klo dy ga ngmg. Jd dy cukup misterius dl buat g krn dy jrg share mendalam pikiran dy. Tp skrg g mulai bs mengerti dy. G mencoba ga mo menjudge dy.G mo nya g be there klo dy mo share..G akan mengatakan pendapat g tp pd akhirnya tetep dy yg jalanin dan tgs g sebagai tmn ya menyupport.

5.     Si E, ini jg salah satu yg kita tau sensitive.Wkt SMP g cukup deket dgn dy krn mnrt g dy pendengar yg baik n bs ksh saran yg baik buat g.klo dy jago basket.. dr SMP uda tinggi n kurus, ampe skrg jg ga byk berubah. Dl klo main capsa tmn curang yg baik d ma Si B n Si C buat ngerjain Si D. Teringat pertama x nya kita ngadain bbq tu dirmh dy tp yg dtg cm ber 2.. wkwkwk..

Dl kita selalu ber 6 melakukan aktivitas bersama setiap sore. Jamannya msh sepeda. Saling menjemput trz berakhir dirumah Si D. Jalan2 naik sepeda, lari pagi (yg bertahan sebentar), main bulu tangkis, bikin ongol2, donut, bubur (dibeli) saat pelajaran tata boga, bbq pas new year ampe diomelin krn ketawa terlalu keras, main capsa. Trz g jd manager bola sampe manager basket.Sampe stlh banjir jalan2 jg bareng. Dan diantar2 wkt2 itu jg ada bumbu cinta monyet segala. N ntah gmn muncullah nama Kupluk.. bbrp tmn angkatan kita pn tau klo kita selalu main brg n bbrp tau nama julukan itu. Dr julukan pribadi dr nama buah sampe binatang. Sempet pny julukan nama keren wkt SMA/kuliah gt pas sama2 main basket.  Wkt SMA sbnrnya g n Si B beda skul dgn yg lain tp kita msh cukup sering ngumpul setdknya pas weekend..Those were one of my best time n years. A lot of laughter n joy.

Setelah mulai masuk kuliah, mulai terjadi perubahan. Ga bs dihindari lah klo kita menemukan lingkungan baru dan temen baru ada yg akan berubah. Pertama yg awalnya berubah dlan adalah Si B, krn pny pacar. Si C sempet merasa kehilangan tu..Awalnya kita kesel jg, ya wajar lah klo selama ini selalu bareng kemudian mulai berubah pastinya ada kehilangan n kita msh cukup egois.. Kemudian satu persatu berubah.. Yg pasti g salah satunya. Waktu g semester 2 masuk semester 3 ada masalah dlm keluarga g yg membuat g berubah drastis. G cukup minder n depresi.Dl g termsk org yg kepo dlm grup ini, yg sk ngabarin msg2, yg jd seksi repotnya. Kemudian krn mslh keluarga yg g hadapin membuat g capek n g memutuskan untuk bersikap egois. I dun care anymore karena menurut g semua terlalu bergantung dgn g, support yg diberikan berupa kata2 “ u pasti bisa, u kn kuat, tegar n bla bla bla..”  bagi g terdengar sebagai beban..n I became unhappy. Kdg g memutuskan menjaga jarak krn membuat g ga nyaman dan g jd ga bs crt n share. Saat yg bersamaan jg ada satu org yg ikut menjauh krn mslh keluarga jg keknya..

"If you judge people, you have no time to love them."  - Mother Teresa

Hal ini terjadi bertahun2 sampe akhirnya g sadar n g cukup merasa kehilangan. Banyak kesalahpahaman dan satu2nya org yg tetap tak berubah mnrt g adalah si A.  Dengan Si A, g bs crt apa aj, qt bs saling menunjukkan kelemahan dan kelebihan msg2 tanpa jd musuhan.

Kemudian ada juga saat2 g hrs milih antara temen n pacar. Kdg g ga mo milih, tp g mkr menggabungkan mereka blm saatnya akn menimbulkan ketdaknyamanan. Dan hal ini susah membuat sebagian org mengerti dan balik lg g merasa g hrs menyenangkan byk pihak n membuat g stress.. Klo skrg g pkr, mgkn g jg terlalu berpkran buruk ttg tmn2 g n pasangan g.. Mgkn mrk akn bs menemukan kecocokan tnpa g hrs merasa terbebani dgn pkran sndr. I admitted…my bad..

       "Friendship is one mind in two bodies." 

- Mencius

I think this quote was suit me.. Mgkn krn pd suatu point g tdk satu pikiran dgn yg lain membuat keadaan menjadi canggung, menjaga jarak atau bahkan dijauhi. At that time, I blamed others tp klo dipkr2 lg ya g sndr jg begitu menuntut dan berharap dimengerti.

O, ya dlm bbrp thn ini ada seorg tmn lg yg g anggap tmn deket g.. sebut Si F. Si F dan Si D mgkn adalah tmn ce g yg cukup dkt dr SMP. Si F pernah satu kls ma g wkt kls 1 SMP. Si F dan Si D satu SMA n g terpisah. Nah, yg akan selalu g inget adalah saat g surat2an dgn mereka n perantaranya adalah ade g. wkwkw. Dr kertas bekas, tissue, kertas hias dll jd medianya. G msh simpen semua itu. Mgkn mrk ud ga simpen.. ^^ G plg merasa kehilangan 2 tmn g yg ini krn semakin dewasa yg ada mrk smkn berjarak. Skrg g plg merasa berjarak dgn si F. Sptnya pasangan, pekerjaannya spt menjadi orientasi hidupnya. Dl dy cukup care dgn byk org skrg sptnya dy cenderung menjudge *my opinion ya*  Seringkali g yg contact mereka buat ajk ketemuan, hang out or stay over. Tp sptnya yg excited just me.. balik lg mgkn krn g mengingat hal baik ttg mereka. Kita bertiga kuliah di kampus yg berbeda.Beda tmpt, beda teman, beda mslh dlm hdp pastinya akn membawa kita semakin beda pikiran n bs jd akhirnya jd ga nyaman satu dgn yg lain. Sbnrny g mgkn tau knp dy berubah..ada kalany g keki dgn dy dan ada kalanya keki jg si D..tp ya balik lg g selalu akn mencr mereka buat basa basi or ajk jlan yg seringnya ga jd..:)

G msh inget saat si F kehilangan sodara perempuan dy.. Saat dy shared her sadness via email dr sana g mkr klo kita susah keknya buat berkomunikasi scr langsung tp g mengerti perasaan dy. I did cry when I read the email.I felt the pain. I also remember at rumah duka. G inget wkt g meluk dy bersama si D n ada Si E yg menenangkan kita bertiga...it was so sad...I remember I texted the other bout that.When she asked me to pray for her sis a day before she passed away n after my prayers I cried all night. Hufff..

Kemudian, ada si G..dy adlh tmn ade g.. anaknya bar2..huff..g aj bs digampar gt ma dy..>.< dy plg kecil pdhl..*ga sopan kan? nah, g inget si G itu sebagai anak yg nyolong komik g n bulet gendut dgn suara kenceng.. trz ntah sjk kpn dy ikut main dlm kupluk. Mgkn saat2 g berada dlm hmmm..masa transisi kali ya.. tau2 dy nongol aj.. Si G ini sifatnya antara mo netral tp ga bs. Hahaha. Dy pd dasarnya ud berubah dibandingkan wkt dy msh SMP dl. Dy ne tipe yg ga mau rugi! Ga mandang temen bukan dah..tp kdg bs jg sih dy cincai.

I guess, skrg no more what we had…krn tp kenangan itu msh fresh n still warmth in me.. dasarnya g pelupa jg jd hal yg buruk g lupa..yg menyenangkan g inget.

B dan C ud merit bahkan Si B ud pny anak. I adore his daughter.. Jd inget dl wkt si B merit, g berdiri di samping si C dan g tny dy gmn perasaan dy liat tmn baikny merit dan dy cm ketawa, terdiam n dr tatapannya g rasa ada perasaan amaze kali. Si B yg dl skul aj bs lp bw buku skrg jd kepala rmh tangga. G sndr ngerasa pd wkt tu dy ganteng bnr d dgn model rambut ala Goo Jun Pyo.*jrg2 g blg gt*  Trz ga nyangka sethn berikutnya Si C menyusul.sygnya saat itu g ud berjarak dgn mrk..I did feel amazed n happy when he got married..^^ who'll be next in line??

Dulu wkt msh SMP kita berandai2 SMA dan kuliah. Wkt kuliah ada kalanya kita berandai2 gmn tar merit pny anak. What will we be next 10 years? saat umur semakin bertambah, fisik berubah, kemudian keluarga bertambah, kemudian yg dibicarakn penyakit, hari tua mgkn suatu saat kita akan mendatangi pemakaman salah satu nya...... Saat itu g berharap klo mereka bs mengingat masa muda mereka dan dgn bahagia bs berkata “ I have great best friends…” ^^

They  might don’t have the same thought with me. It’s ok but hopefully they know, how I cherish their presence with this writing.. :) #cheers